I haven’t written along with the gang over at Five Minute Friday for so long! Life has been chaotic this year, especially since my beloved husband died on July 17. If you want to learn about Five Minute Friday, the place where a gang of writers take a one word prompt and write our little hearts out – with no editing, no back-tracking, just write, write, write – please click on the button above.
Now, it’s time to get this week’s word prompt: BECAUSE
My first thought was the Celine Dion song “Because You Loved Me.”
When the song came out, I fell in love with it. The song basically tells her loved one that she is everything she is, because he loved her. The song was in a movie but I never saw the movie. What grabbed me about the song is that it reminded me of my husband, Ron. He was so loving and kind and precious to me and he treated me like a treasure. Ron taught me how to be assertive; he dared me to go to college; he taught me to stand up for what I believed in, even with the people around me said it was wrong; Ron encouraged and loved me and with his love, I learned how to be the woman that I am today.
Today I am a widow with a teenage son to raise…his son. Ron gave me not only the encouragement and love that I needed in order to grow as a person, he gave me the best gift of all: our son. And now that Ron is in heaven, free from the monster called cancer, I can stand up and take care of my son and learn to create a “new normal” for the two of us. Sometimes I bend but I won’t break. I’m not strong, I’m human. I cry and have pity parties and all those typical things that new widows do.
Ron wasn’t just helping me on his own; no man has that kind of power. He had the greatest Teacher in the Universe to help him. Ron taught me about God. It’s not that I didn’t know about God – but I didn’t REALLY know Him or love Him and to depend upon Him the way I do today. Because of my husband’s love and support, he led me to God and before his death, before he couldn’t communicate to me, one of the last things he told me was to never give up on God.
It hasn’t been easy, these past two months of living without my husband, my partner, my lover, my best friend. I’ve leaned on the Lord so many times that I worry He’s getting sore shoulders. Oh, I know better than that! He takes me and carries me through these sad days and lonely nights. My son and I are never alone. God is here, He is taking care of the two of us (along with the rest of the human race).
Because Ron loved me, because he taught me to love God and how to turn my life and my will over to Him, I’m still standing.
Thank you, darling. I miss you and can’t wait to be reunited with you again in Heaven. Because I will always love you!
Thank you, YouTube, for the video!